ugh...i hate being sick.

anyway ive been out of school the past two days but have no fear i am coming back!....and im gonna be really behind in everything but its ok. alrite now ive gotta tell certain ppl some things really quick -->

~cherylyn - im bad....i caved again tonight! what is wrong with me?! lol

*pagie - sorry t is gone....i know you miss him!...itll get better tho.

~kayla - MINE! ALL MINE! lmao

anyway ive got some stuff to do before tomorrow and im being kicked off the comp by some rude house-mate so yea, talk to ya guys later ~ bye

i promised someone i would do this so here it is --

I AM: a loser, a geek and a wanna-be musician

I WANT: to play guitar really good and write good songs

I HAVE: the bestest friends ever!
I WISH: my knee was normal again
I HATE: super selfish people

I MISS: someone special
I FEAR: idk, more stuff than i realize
I HEAR: the old movie my dad is watching in the other room

I SEARCH: for something im good at
I WONDER: what im gonna do when i grow up

I ALWAYS: day-dream

I AM NOT: dishonest

I DANCE: almost never!

I SING: in my room with the stereo up really loud

I CRY: dont do that a whole lot

I AM NOT ALWAYS: good at thinking before i speak/do

I WRITE: horrible songs

I WON: some 1^st place things for fighting

I LOST: someone special

I CONFUSE: a lot of stuff
I NEED: money so i can buy a TON of cds
I SHOULD: not spend all my money on cds

MY FATHER THINKS I AM: a big screw up/failure

MY MOTHER THINKS I AM: going to get myself into a ton of trouble one day soon

I GET EMBARRASSED WHEN:

MAKES ME HAPPY: hearing a really good song at the perfect moment and not planning it

UPSETS ME: hearing people talk bad about my friends right in front of me

YES OR NO
You keep a diary: no, i always forget to write

You like to cook: yea

You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yea

You're in love: i think so….. :/

You set your watch a few minutes ahead: yea but it doesn’t work cause i know it is lol

You bite your fingernails: yea…sometimes

You believe in love: yea

What is your most overused phrase on IM: lol

The last image/thought you go to sleep with: haha wouldn’t you like to know :P

Your best characteristic: always putting my friends first
Want to get married: yea

Have any tattoos/where?: no, but im getting some!
Piercing/where?: gonna get my ears and maybe my belly

Get motion sickness: never!
Think you're a health freak: nah….i love ice cream and chocolate way to much

Get along with your parents: umm my mom yea, kinda

SCREEN NAME: yc mest 279

NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown

CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown

EYE COLOR: blue

FAVORITES
NUMBER: 27                  

COLOR:  blue

DAY:  ?

Month:  august...i think

SONG: its an untitled track -- but i have a ton of fav. songs, so hard to choose
FOOD: almost anything thats home cooked

SEASON: summer/fall/spring

SPORT: karate/swimming

DRINK: water ((im a simple girl))

VEGGIE: carrot

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? depends

CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? depends

VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolate

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU....

CRIED?  no

HELPED SOMEONE?  yes

BOUGHT SOMETHING? yea! an entire weeks pay worth of something ;)

GOTTEN SICK? no

GONE TO THE MOVIES? no, but watched one

SAID "I LOVE YOU"?  yea

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: yea, but decided not to send it

MISSED AN EX?: nope!

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: nah

TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON?: yup

HAD A SERIOUS TALK?:  yea

MISSED SOMEONE?:  yup!
HUGGED SOMEONE?:  yup

 -- hope your happy now lol

before i get yelled at let me explain ive been really really busy and i went to update and right before i did i X-ed out the box by mistake and i didnt have time to retype it so im sorry.

anyway tonight im going to the metrostars game and they better win! im not gonna sit out there for 2 hours and freeze my ass of to watch DC once again kick their ass ((although last game they fought till the end and it was a pretty good game :\ ))

here let me add some personal notes:

~paige, wonderboy....not so wonderful lol

*georgie, im sorry i forgot to give ya your "gift" in biology lol. monday i promise! lol

~julia, im allowed back on the computer which is good considering its like the only time we get to talk cause we never see each other in school and ive been to busy to ask ya to hang out again. im sorry.

*chrissy, me you and cassie have to hang out soon! i havent seen you for more than 20 seconds in forever!

~cassie, me you and chrissy have to hang out soon! lol

*cherylyn, thanks for listening to me all the time. it really helps to have someone to talk to about everything going on right now....even if you have to wack me with a pillow for 20 minutes lol ((rhat was soo funny! teasing you/torturing you is way to easy and way way to fun lol :P))

other than watching mollie((who has been crying everyday lately cause she misses her mom and/or her dad)), guitar lessons, and letting hw take over every minute of my free time ((not fun)) i started karate again cause the doctor said i can, i go back to gym on monday, and i now have pyhsical theropy 3 times a week and it hurts, bad ((its still hurts and i guess if it makes it feel better in the long run its ok but right now it just adds to the pain :/ )).

well my sister is yelling at me and ive gotta go clean my bedroom -- what fun! ttyl later, love ya guys lots<3 bye

alrite so it might not be everyday but, im getting better at remembering to update.

well thursday we went back to school, and by friday i was over it. i was like ok thats enough now get me out of here. i really have no clue why everyone thinks highschool is gonna be so awesome. yea ive only been there for two days but i mean my sister has been there for 3 years and nothing extremly great has happened to her. i dont know im just probably upset, like i am every year when summer comes to an end, but especially this year...summer was awesome the past like 2 weeks and then it was over, why does the good stuff always happen at the end of summer? i mean summer was good this year but it was so sweet those last 2 weeks.                

oh yea, and i quickly learned how fast my friends can spread word of something good actually happening to me lol.

anyway my first day of work was yesterday and it went pretty good, i deff learned a few things but over all it was cool.

well right now im gonna go find something to eat. talk to ya guys later -- bye <3

((and julia, im still a little happy-hyper lol. love ya lots, dont know wat id do without ya <333))

alrite well this weekend went good if i wasnt at my house......bad things happened. but at the same time some pretty awesome things happened too. :) 

anyway i missed the vmas - which everyone knows i really wanted to see - but it was worth it. i spent the day at the air show with the delias, gary and gary. -- cherylyn i love ya and all but you really gotta try to smile more and just be happy. i know i of all people shouldnt be talking, but i really dont like seeing you so sad all the time...makes me even sadder.

so my mom is pretty pist off at me and ive got some cleaning to do so um hit me up on IM later or call or w/e ill be home today. ttyl

((knee is acting up again...great...think im gonna have to get mom to take me to the doctors again...what fun))

wow its been forever since ive updated. opps. anyway lately ive just been hanging out with some cool people, listening to some good music, and getting back in shape for karate.

i still have 4 reports to do and a book to finish before we go back to school in like what 5 days? ahhhh scary! i hate school, wish i never had to go back. seriously it really sucks.

anyway ive gotta go finish up some stuff in my bedroom ((we're moving furniture)) so i guess ill talk to ya later, bye! <3

((call if ya wanna hang out tonight or tomorrow...dont think im doing anything))

alrite, heres the details of my "exciting" trip....

it rained 2 days ((one in the middle of the week and the day we were going home))

the beach was good - water was cold as usual but still really nice

there is now no doubt in my mind that i cant shop. i spent so much money on this trip, its insane.

one of my cousins drove me and everyone else in the house ((except his parents))out of their minds!

we didnt get to go squiding this year, or jump off of the brige outside of town but i will next year so i guess its ok.

oh and because of some new and stupid cop up there we werent allowed to ride in the back of the truck ((and i mean the back, like the bed))

umm there was more stuff ((im not that boring)) but my sister and i are looking at some new things for my bedroom cause ive grown out of its style now so ive g2g -- later

alrite im home, opened my bday gifts yesterday...well most of them. i have to wait till my dad gets home for the "big" one. and ive got guitar tonight ((and im rly gonna suck cause even though i brought it with me i didnt practice more than an 60/75 min so yea...))

anyway ive gotta go ice my knee ((more problems, same knee)) and do some other boreing stuff. anyway ill talk to ya later - bye

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vacation is one day away ((well more like 12 hrs but ya know well only be in the car then))! im still not done packing and we're leaving at like 3 or 4 in the morning so i probably wont sleep till we're in the car ((cause thats usually my "bed time" *and its kinda weird, we usually leave at like 3 but i havent gone up with them in 2 yrs so im a lil out of it - its gonna be hell with kelly!)) ((kelly usually gets sick cause hes stupid and doesnt listen to my mom and ugh dad too - i might not make it back alive guys...but ill try my hardest lol))

seriously though, i need this break. beaches, claming, squiding, shopping ((downtown rocks up there!)), did i say beaches? oh i guess i did, anyway its gonna be pretty cool - im a lil worried about the house cause its a new one but hopefully itll all be ok.

yet im still worried about two of my "friends". one im a lil worried i lost and another ((you know who you are cause we're lacking on the friends part right now *and the trust*)) who needs some help and isnt strong enough to get it again. i know im gonna regret saying this but if you need me ill be back aug 1st - really late so dont call me until the 2nd ((my bday!)). im here for ya ((gonna regret that too)), but please get help before i do it for you and thats something i really dont wanna do.

well with that ive gotta go finish getting ready and pack -- be back in a week! bye! <3

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well today was hardly a great day but its ok because soon i will be at the one, the only Block Island! :) and i can deal with trying to figure out what the statis between me and one of my best friends is until saturday and then if its still not cool, take a break and deal with it....ugh, not they day i come back but maybe the day after seeing that it will be my birthday! yes thats right, taras bday is very soon! and im gonna spend it eating good food, chilling by the pool and maybe dinner with the delias/hayters but not sure on that dinner part, hopefully it will happen though.

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lyl but i g2g -- later

well today i figured out a lot of things:  i shouldnt be allowed to listen to the radio anymore or check out new bands on line ((i spent $80.00 on cds today - money  that im surprised i had)), always think twice before you do something/say something you think you might regret, and always let people know how you feel when you have the chance because that chance may not present itself again for a long time. oh and one more thing - theres always something to help pull you through hard times even if you dont realize it at first.

on another note i didnt do much today. mostly because, well because i just havent felt the greatest about a lot of stuff lately so ive been thinking about how to change that and a lot of other things that are going on around me.

ive also been watching some videos of bands that havent been getting to much press around them or theyve been getting some in areas where most of my friends i know arent looking or seeing it so feel free to hit me up later and ask for some names ((or tell me about some i might not know - because i might have heard their name but not their stuff)).

well its offical, i will now be able to get my ipod this year :). its weird i thought id be happier i could finally get some new things ive been wanting, and to be honest, the job im gonna have isnt bad - its actually pretty cool.((yes thats right, tara now has a job this year!)) the only downside is that i will now most likely have to get on a different bus in the afternoon, oh well.

well to be honest not much else has happened, just thought id let ya know my life ((monday - friday)) will now be compeletly ruled from 6:00 am to 9:00 pm ((9 is usually when im getting done w/ homework and can flip through my AP mag or watch some TV plus i get home from karate at 8:20 a couple nights a week, guitar on tuesday and soon ill have to start teaching karate for my 100 hrs there so yea, gonna be busy))

well today is my dads bday and like most other years he was traveling last night and wont be home until dinner time ((if not later)) but hey, at least hes coming home so ive now gotta go get ready for him - ttyl

alrite so today i had my lessons and to my amazment i did pretty well on those new blues scales ((granted i did deff. mess up here and there -- for those of you who have no clue what im talking about, the lessons were for guitar)), even dan was impressed on my first scale ((dan=teacher dude and he wasnt so impressed on all of um lol)). other than that i didnt do much today, went to the bank ((79.16 dollars richer!)), practiced my scales, cancelled my week at tennis camp, i dont know i didnt do that much just kinda hung out today which was nice ((especially cause i got up so late)).

im so glad its summer, you have no idea. i love staying up late and getting up late and thats excatly what im doing - i love it! plus Block Island soon, very cool.

mis. things going on - my knee is still bothering me a little, im setting myself up for yet another fall, spending time at my cousins houses again this summer ((no big surprise - so if you call, im not home and i dont call back dont take it personall i just havent gotten the message yet, no biggie)), but the really amazing thing is that i so far havent been grounded yet - not even for a day! not even an hour! i dont know either something is wrong with me or theres something wrong with my parents - either way i havent been getting into trouble which i guess is good? who knows. and im still crushing.....well im crushing some cool guy but we wont say any names.

well, my sister needs her TV back from when my cousins were over and of course i have to move it for her...so im out for now -- later

alrite so im home...but not for long. i came home to go to my grandmas bday party and to practice for my guitar lessons on tuesday night ((because since i didnt know i would be there that long i failed to bring it with me)).  then after lessons tuesday night i go home, pack up my guitar and some stuff for my other anuts house ((i think im only staying there till friday though- not 100% sure yet)).  i deffinatly dont like being home over the summer ((for all of you that couldnt tell already lol)).

well do to my lack of practice my playing sucks - and i mean sucks - and my finger tips hurt because when i dont sound good i get frustrated and when i get frustrated i start pushing the strings down really hard and griping the really hard ((untill my finger tips are white lol)). so now i have to play non-stop tomorrow and ill probably wind up playing for another hour or two tonight.

ha and the best part of today wasnt when someone ((coughjoannkellycough)) got me mad/annoyed on IM this morning but when my brother felt the need to insult me every chance he's gotten and knowing if i dare do it back ill get in trouble from my parents because im older!

other than that im just gonna hang out around the house for today ((well more like hide out in my room)) until dinner, then im going across the street lol.

well ive gotta go -- bye

alrite well im gonna be at my cousins house for a lil while - DONT CALL THE HOUSE!

lyl -- ttyl -- bye!

*~*summer 04*~*

alrite well ive been kinda busy lately but since summer is now here i should have some more time on my hands. this summer is gonna be all about friends and music ((shows, listening to cds that i havent yet (new or old), getting good at guitar - the works)). most of the stuff i wanna do i probably wont get to but its all good.

lately ive been into the cd cataylst ((new found glory)) so check it out if ya havent. i havent finished it cause ive been listening to each song a couple times but by the end of the day i hopefully will have. if ya want to know some other bands/songs/cds ive been digging lately let me know and hopefully ill be able to hook ya up with some things youll like.

this summer is also gonna be about writing ((songs)). ive been trying for a while and just havent been good at it. i get a line of two and i have pages and pages of ideas and begginnings but for whatever reason havent been able to put together or finish. my goal - one song. kinda sad but i dont wanna set myself up for a let down and write crappy things, i want it to reflect me ((whoever that is)) and be something i will eventually not be ashamed to show people.

well, i graduated wed. night and i have to admit it was better than i thought but i still feel the same about it. it doesnt feel like everyother summer, doesnt really feel all that much like summer to me, and while i wanted to get out of macopin i dont really want to go to the highschool either.

theres a lot of shows i want to go to but so many i know that for whatever reason i wont be going to too. if any of ya are going to a show and need/want someone to go with let me know cause chances are id wanna go. ive already had to miss a couple i wanted to go to this year.

sorry i keep jumping around from subject to subject, its just the order im thinking of it in.

well ive gotta go finish up some stuff around the house but if ya wanna do something, hang out, or just dial the digits - i should be home, or you can send me some IMs if im on later. until then (or next time i decide to update) im out -- later

wow i havent updated in a long time. anyway today is fathers day and my dads gift wasnt shipped on time so its coming later this week - bet its gonna make him feel oh so special ((o well, i dont care)). other than that today kelly had a soccer game today which we left for at 11:43 and didnt get home until 4:11 ((i think, if not that close to)) but they won so its all good.

finals are over, schools almost out, summer is here and im ready to go! concerts, beach, block island, friends, its gonna be awesome and its gonna go quick so ive gotta start getting ready!

well thats it for now i guess - ill try and update more often too, dont know though. anyway im out -- later

yet again its been a while since ive updated, sry bout that for those of you who care. lately ive been spending weekends w/ cherylyn and last friday i went to tinas bday party and cassie&georgies party after that.

other than that things around the house have been a lil crazy and like usually ive got tons of stuff to do when i get home everyday ((falling behind actually)), my knee is still killing - especially cuz my sis hit it yesterday, finals started today, i dont know a lot of stuff going on. but ive got karate tonight so ive g2g -- later

**jere - im sorry, i shouldnt have said what i did and i do regret it. please dont be mad anymore, i hate fighting, i hate being mad at each other and hopefully you feel the same about what you said. are we even friends anymore?**

well i know i havent updated in forever, especially considering that i use to try and do it everyday, but all i have to say, its painting a smile gets old.

jere-im glad your happy, you deserve it; you really do. just do me a favor and dont forget me.